Lashing out to stupidity is common but not an acceptable behaviour.

Finding it hard to control temper . I’m getting more and more irritated with myself. Unable to take a break since 5 yrs . And now with dad gone , I know it will never happen.

I am afraid that this might lead to me hating my family because I love them. Seems too messed up . But I need some help . Some unknown being to just pull me off this dark loop of thoughts